From the Glitter Dancefloor

I miss her so much that I think I am going to die.

I don’t know who was the one who was talking but it certainly wasn’t me. She was so sure what she wants and stayed so calm and determined the whole night. She explained clearly why this is not working and why this relationship is ending now. She broke up with my girlfriend and closed the door behind her.

This resulted in me crying my eyes out the next day.

Now it is the second post-separative day. I lie in my bed and watch How I met your mother, hours after hours, crying and laughing at the same time. My mood changes every other minute: First I am happy we broke up but then in a few seconds I want to call her and beg her to come back. I am unable to concentrate at the lectures, I almost started crying when changing patient’s diapers, I felt really strong urge to kiss the Italian exchange student and I went to a supermarket next to my ex’s house in order to maybe see her walking from her door to the busstop. I feel like I am going crazy.I am only happy I have the best friend ever in the whole world. She keeps me from calling my ex and drinks beer with me even though it is Monday evening. With her support i might just survive this.